quirky rain again

here s the infinite curtain of autumn rain sweeping across the city and bringing back the pinpricks of winter past again. The agony of true love. How very unreal in its spotless transparency. this impervious paradox, this memory of a blurry slippery feeling.

the freshness and the odour of the long awaited rain brought back the pain. a deadly muffled cauterized version of the razor sharp late autumn shipwreck's survivor pangs. a soul wandered away from its centre, from life itself into the void.

i ll wait for you i ll wait for you i ll wait for you until until until...

until awe eats up all that is good and beautiful and the rain reminds me of who we were. until your body wants to ache to relieve the pain. the sting metamorphoses into antidote and you wish for sweet death. until you can t breathe and the tears seem to help.

you ll always be a starring scar, always a force of nature.

until I die.